I spend too much, which is quite bad.
& i am still going out like mad. Gosh sometimes i just wish money appears out of nowhere so i can stop feeling guilty about taking from mom.

I countdown-ed and it was quite fun.
I went to the zoo yesterday and it was great although it rained halfway and huisze couldn't join us.
I went for service today and will go for cell next week actually i can't wait for the service next week and i am v v v happy that _ got redec.

I met nikita on the way home at amk mrt. This is v v v surprising and i was v glad i actually saw her. We talked about school, what we would want to be & randomly about my babies. We talked about how time flies, and that she is still the same old one going for trngs and running. It was quite a short conver but we covered much. Of course i thought about the good old days after that and wondered if i would continue running if i could. I miss it, of course.

There are always somethings that we can't let go, can't forget, can't put down. Some part of life that has become a habit that we keep going, keep doing, sometimes unconsciously. There are things that pull us back, we keep looking, keep wondering if there is something more we can do. We struggle, we hide.
Today God showed me how, He really did. So i was freed, i will be able to.