Yes in fact it bothers me sometimes.

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Sometimes i lay in bed, the moments before i fall asleep i think about what tomorrow will be like. What would my mood be, what would the weather be like, what will i be feeling, how are people gna look at me, am i gna remember my dream, am i gna be happy.

But at that moment it occur to me that i might never live past tonight.

That perphaps that might be a worm hibernating inside me that might take me away while i am sleeping. Because the truth is i'll never know whether tomorrow comes.

But the very fact that i am here means that obviously i have woken up from every moments i have thoughts like that.

Still, this is what life is like.

The recent demise of a boy whom i dont directly know has got me thinking. It happened because of a car accident and i was thinking what if it had been me?

God showed me how He takes away lives, even those who were shining for Him, even those whose prescence could touch many more.

Life is fragile, God's actions are planned.

Certainly he lives in heaven happy now. But i was just thinking that no matter how planned it might have been i wouldn't have been ready to give up on life.

Nobody has a choice, death is but another journey of life.

Just as i was thinking, i felt grateful. That i could live till now, lived through today and be grateful when i open my eyes tomorrow.

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Anyway, the point is school is getting busy. Sometimes i complain about life. Why why why. Which sort of contradicts everything above.

When i go to the supermarket with my mom, my only hope was that i will win huge amounts of money then i will move to some nice place and buy two houses - one to stay and the other to rent to earn my keeps. Then i would never have to face another math problem, anything day of waking up early. Plus the weather there would probably be alot better.

The amount of work is amazing. What is more amazing is sometimes i feel bored like i have alot of time when truthfully there is a lot of things to be done.

Like, my GPP is due tmr and i can't believe i am actually blogging.

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I am enjoying school more, really.

Time flies, sometimes i wish we could have a little more time to hold on to what we could, what we would, what we just can't bear to even miss.

Can't wait for australia.