Everyday is like waking up telling yourself to study and eat and study and bathe and study. But most of the time you sort of tell yourself you can fight for the life that you want (like stoning or reading) and end up not studying at all even though is MYE soon and then you are guilty at the end of the day but still go to sleep peacefully at 12am after snogging the teevee the whole day and have sweet dreams.

I realise that i can do away with the daily routine i set in my brain anytime i want but i cannot run away from the routine of eventually going to school and doing papers and getting results and maybe deciding life is wrong.

Depressing. I am seriously not stressed about the exams. Sometimes i just realise that maybe i am not the me i am anymore, some aspects which i dontknow is good or bad. Like my heart just flew thousands of miles away from where i am to somewhere else with nice sand so i can sit all day with my teevee and library and nice things to do.

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On another note, Harrypotter's first half of the 7th movie is coming out soon yay in november hahahahahah and the universal thing is open it looks fab i wna go there like after a levels (if i get there) or something.