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Today i feel like i've been floating around. I feel fuzzy on the inside, like i'm lazing too much, or there is too much radiation from the laptop, like i am thinking too much, like i am not thinking about anything at all, like i don't know what i'm thinking.

It's actually not a bad day, considering that i woke up really late and i finished reading two books and watched a movie and like lie around everywhere. But i have homework to do tmr, for the last week of school :( I wish i could skip it.

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Change is inevitable.

Some change for the better,

some change for the worst.

Some are part of a change,

some causes the change.

To disappear, we first have to appear. To be asleep, we first have to be awake. To be who you really are, do we first have to be who we really aren't?

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On a side note, i was trying to imagine myself being old/people around me being old. Old as in 70+ in age - when you need a walking stick and your hair is white and your teeth are gone. Then i realised that i cannot deal with being old, and people around me reaching that age. I cannot really deal with not being able to walk really fast and digest food i like and have to cope with illnesses. And the thought + reality that i have aged and the people around me have aged.

Of course them ageing is none of my business but ohwell, imagine my mom being that age drove me mad halfway through dinner.

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You didn't know because i've never intended to tell you.

I couldn't bring myself to.

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I think alot, on some days. Maybe i can't help it, it's like part of life and part of growing up and it is inevitable. The thought of having to mature kills me already. We all need open brains.

The kind that doesn't even ask what it's like to not care, but it really doesn't matter.